i missed you

You cannot be lonely if you like the person you’re alone with.
I am lucky to have someone that makes saying goodbye so hard.
I like her because she smiles at me and means it,
and I felt it shelter to speak to her.

Yesterday was not quite what it could’ve been
As were most of all the days before
But I swear today, with every breath I’m breathing in
I’ll be trying to make it so much more

‘Cause it seems I get so hung up on the history of what’s gone wrong
And the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
But I’m finally catching on to it, yeah, the past is just a conduit
And the light, there at the end is where I’ll be

‘Cause I’m on the up and up, I’m on the up and up
And I haven’t given up, given up on what I know I’m capable of
Yeah, I’m on the up and up and yeah, there’s nothing left to prove
‘Cause I’m just trying to be a better version of me for you
A better version of me for you

Now i have, all that i could ever need
The confidence of knowing there’s still time
To make amends, and try to build a better me
and to take the right steps as this road unwinds.

But I’m finally catching on to it and yeah,
the past is just a conduit
And the light, there at the end is where I’ll be

Oh, ’cause I’m on the up and up, I’m on the up and up
And I haven’t given up, given up on what I know I’m capable of
Yeah, I’m on the up and up and yeah, there’s nothing left to prove
‘Cause I’m just trying to be a better version of me for you
A better version of me for you

Never cease to supply me with what I need for a good life
So when I’m down, I’ll hold my head up high
‘Cause you’re the reason why, yeah, you’re why

I’m on the up and up, I’m on the up and up
And I haven’t given up, given up on what I know I’m capable of
Yeah, I’m on the up and up, so yeah, there’s nothing left to prove
‘Cause I’m just trying to be a better version of me for you
I’m just trying to be a better version of me for you

Relient K – Up and Up

A few days without my blue book, and its already been quite hard. it was such an important outlet for me to say 6 very important words that sum up all i am right now. but it held me back, and i am slowly getting better. i am, because of 4 words every morning and night, because of your voice every day, because of your smiles and happy faces, because of your bright turqoise bag i see all the time, because of econs tuition i give to you, because of everything that is now, and everything that will be…

” Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.”

14/3/07

I, in abeyance
stationary with restraint.
You, visionary of imagination,
perfection had to be patient.

plans drawn, hands prepared,
but held back expectantly.
excitement and anticipation,
perfection had to be patient.

naked feet, wet shirts,
elegant shoulders exposed to the sun,
awaiting the horizon set,
perfection had to be patient.

a drop of cold, and many
light and yet heavy,
their touch delicate and sensitive,
perfection had to be patient.

nervous with expectancy,
pulse governed by impulse.
erratic within, but calm as snow,
a taste of perfection that had been patient.

i see many people following.

its interesting to just observe how people act, interact and react in a group. social interaction and behaviour is one thing i find thoroughly intriguing. i must take up a course on that someday.

i believe trends are deliberate but indirect advocacy. starters of trends advocate the support of others to bring the security and assurance of agreement to their cause/belief. and many fall prey.

far too many people are following. and sometimes, its awfully obvious that these people don’t really know what they want. so if others want something, they want it too. just because someone else wants it. sounds singaporean huh.  such a shame. to not know what you really want. and just follow.

i see many people following.
too many people following.

aiya. wordpress got problem loading photos, hence the delay. thats poor!

keith you can be my valentine.
but i have to be the girl.
and you have to treat me lan and movie.
and maybe flowers.